THE MUSIC OF LETTING GO
Words and Music by Porter Singer
This is not for the faint of heart
The music of letting go is in a minor key to start
But you will emerge--wings spread--
like a beautiful Phoenix rising up from the dead
This is the hardest part
For some things we leave grip tightly on our heart
There will be greater frontiers
You will see once you can look past your tears
That the prize you think you're trying to win
Well it cannot compare to the one you have within
You must say:
I love you enough to let you go
I love you enough to let you go
Have you ever loved someone so much you could just let 'em go?
The notes compound like a problem has evolved
but it's just the dissonance wherein we can appreciate the resolve
These times may seem to never end
but you will look back and see they were your friend
Cause the prize you think you're trying to win
cannot compare to the one you already have within
You must say:
I love you enough to let you go
I love you enough to let you go
Have you ever loved yourself so much you could just let it go?
Story about your name
Words and Music by Porter Singer
Did I ever tell you the story about your name?
The night you were born we gave that decision away
Did I ever tell you the story of our day?
It was all arranged
My parents were scared I was being taken away
It was soft indoctrination
It was dysfunction we signed up for
We swallowed our disillusion, went back for more
Did I ever tell you about singing these songs?
Entraining my mind and an audience willing to sing along
It was glorious communion
It was sweet hypocrisy
It meant something to all of us
It gave us something to be
'Cause without all the brainwash
Without all the cosplay
Without all the pontification
You wouldn't be here today
So you bet I'm grateful for my naïveté
‘Cause without all the borrowing
You wouldn’t be here today
It was a bumpy adventure
Flying through space like a skipping stone
But what I want desperately for you are adventures you can call your own
It certainly wasn't how most kids were brought up
But as you get older you'll see: everyone gets their own brand of f-ed up
'Cause without all the brainwash
Without all the cosplay
Without all the untenable truths
You wouldn't be here today
So you bet I'm grateful for my naïveté
‘Cause without all the borrowing
You wouldn’t be here today
It was a deep dive into discipline
No use finding fault
I finally lost interest
But I love the result
One More Stone
Words and Music by Porter Singer
There was a split, and then a game
Only a difference needs a name
There was a fault and in we slipped
No such thing, but the power flipped
There were lovers, now on opposite poles
They were whole, but they chose their roles
There was a longing to connect
But there was a plan life had to reflect
She said light and there was light
She dreamed dreams and there was the night
She said “Earth” and there was home
within a multiverse: one more stone
There was a chase around a tree
And the winner, it was decided, got to be
somewhat supreme in an illogical sense
Here on Earth we rank our guests
She said light and there was light
She dreamed dreams and there was the night
She said “Earth” and there was home
within a multiverse: one more stone
She wove the stars into the screen that you would see mouth agape
She breathed the shape of the peaks—its trails, its trees, its lakes
No use saying there’s such a thing as a distant land
Extended arms she beams: “we hold each other in these hands”
There was a yawn and a weary glance
A sleepy mountain got up to dance
It was uncomfortable for this old Earth
but what followed: a rebirth
She said exist and here we are
an evolved intention, a confetti of stars
She said awaken and we rose, opening our eyes to the jury of shadows
She said light and there was light
She dreamed dreams and there was the night
She said “Earth” and there was home
within a multiverse: one more stone
Fingerprints
Words and Music by Porter Singer
Feels like I've written this song before
Different band, same score
Feels like I've cried for this reason before
Different backdrop, same score
It feels like an impulse to flee
But no matter where I go I'm still taking me
Better not batten down the hatches
Best not pack up in fear
There are still fingerprints on my glasses
And I'm not gonna leave until they're clear
Feels like a revolving door of missed calls
I'm ready to hear now, so I'm taking them all
One at a time, it's a bit much to take
Feels good to know that it's never too late
It feels like an impulse to flee
But no matter where I go I'm still taking me
Better not batten down the hatches
Best not pack up in fear
There are still fingerprints on my glasses
And I'm not gonna leave until they're clear
No I'm not gonna leave until they're clear
No I'm not gonna leave until they're clear
Where am I going?
How did I evolve?
How did my awareness expand?
What riddles were solved?
Did I get a little closer to the real me?
Did I get a little closer to the truth that I am free?
It feels like an impulse to flee
But no matter where I go I'm still taking me
Better not get out the matches
Best not burn it down in fear
There are still fingerprints on my glasses
And I'm not gonna leave until they're clear
No I'm not gonna leave until they're clear
No I'm not gonna leave until they're clear
FOR YOU TO OPEN
Words and Music by Porter Singer
You felt out of place
So you took us to outer space
Paradise not on Earth anymore
Digging to find a marble floor
You felt out of skin
No clone to your next of kin
It wasn’t long 'til you jumped from the nest
Off to narrate a hero’s quest
They called out we love you
But you couldn’t hear
Not through the atmosphere
They sent letters too
That I was waiting for you to open
Waiting for you to open
Waiting for you to see the truth
To feel the love we felt for you
We sat on the verge
Of a portal between two worlds
No longer a part of anything
Successors to that familial sting
They called out we love you
But you couldn’t hear
Not through the fear of rejection
They sent faxes too
That I was waiting for you to open
Waiting for you to open
Waiting for you to feel the truth
Earth was different without you
Send in the martians and the earthlings too
Send in the cosmic stellar glue
I couldn’t be that for you, that’s ok
Will you listen? They’re not far away
We love you, We love you, We love you, We love you
Now you say I love you
And I can clearly hear
I have no fear of the past now
And no longer wait for you
I love you no matter how much you open
No matter how you open
It’s enough to see the truth
It feels good to love you
Can’t be where we are
without the steps we took to get us this far
And some might say we have scars on our skin
I say they’re stars in the cosmos within
We love you, We love you, We love you, We love you
UNWOUND
Words and Music by Porter Singer
Unwound
I'm unravelling
Somewhere bound
So far meandering
Slipping out
Shedding itchy skin
Shouting out
It's my voice again
Moving on
I am here right now
Got my crown
Wanna ask me how?
I know the water isn't always clear where you're swimming
You kick up the mud
It's hard to see
I know the edge isn't always clear when you're spinning
The sun burns your eyes
It's hard to see
See-ee-ee-ee-ee
Unwound
No more travelling
Putting down what I was carrying
Resting up
It's been quite a year
Not to fear
I am resilient
I know the water isn't always clear where you're swimming
You kick up the mud
It's hard to see
I know the edge isn't always clear when you're spinning
The sun burns your eyes
It's hard to see
See-ee-ee-ee-ee
Vision in the rearview mirror is always clear when you know what you've seen
Time lets you dance with the shadows
And free doesn't mean serene
See-ee-ee-ee-ee
Phantom
Words and Music by Porter Singer
This is how you let go 1, 2, 3
This is how you breathe it in
It's easy to release until I think I want I back
I let it slip away
I feel it's phantom
I feel it's phantom
This is how you exhale 4, 5, 6
This is how you mean it
When I look into my eyes and faintly see the stars
They'll say that it is right, right where you are
Right where you are
La da da da da da da da da da dum
La da da da da da da da dum
This is how you transmute 12, 5, 8
This is how you feel it
You see the light for what it is and graciously accept
The tears have played their role and brought you to a greater depth
Everything in balance--can you fathom?
Can you fathom?
La da da da da da da da da da dum
La da da da da da da da dum
{Repeat until end}
Plant a seed
Words and Music by Porter Singer
When you take your cup
Hoping to fill it up
And the clouds have all dried up
Leave it there
Maybe it'll rain tomorrow
It's ease to lose yourself
In the shades of someone else
Make you forget who you are
Stay right there
Maybe it'll change tomorrow
Tomorrow
The thunder clouds of old aren't that noisy anymore
The dance of light at night is not that wild
And I could lose all sense of time waiting for the clouds to swell
Or I could remember I'm mostly water myself
Plant a seed
Then when if it rains tomorrow
You won't have to be there
‘Cause you’ll always be there in a way
dear Porter
Words and Music by Porter Singer
Dear Porter,
You were perfect from the start
10 little fingers and one beating heart
Eternal one, you are our pride and joy
You are the product of a love none can destroy
Dear Porter,
They said you chose your name
That wasn’t the only thing you chose
It’s your responsibility not your blame
Would you believe that you wanted
Everything that occurred?
Would it surprise you
That we’ve been rooting for you
Even when it hurt?
Dear Porter,
You tried to run away
You see now that that’s impossible
But what a fun game
You’ve lived adventures unimaginable
Had experiences beyond compare
Do you believe us when we say
Even when it hurt, we were there?
Dear Porter,
You are magnificent and great
You have taken your sweet time
But we could never say you were late
We revel as you savor
Every moment of this life
And just know it is a pleasure
To be guiding you off the edge of this knife
Dear Sirgun,
You entered, and you learned, and you prayed
It was the blink of an eye before you saw
There was nothing to save
And you saw you couldn’t lose
Even when things seemed dire and depraved
It wasn’t yours to stick follow
It was a step along the way
Dear Porter,
We are here— call upon us anytime
Give us your questions, we have answers
You’ve always had a direct line
Give us your trust, for we can see, with clarity 'round the bend
And we promise, there is wonder in the midst of what you think is unwanted
We continue to be exhilarated
We never judge you— that wouldn’t be fair
Do you believe us when we say
Even when it hurts
We will always be there?
Hello, I came here to sing
Words and Music by Porter Singer
Hello, I came here to sing
When I was born, that much was clear to me
I spent a lot of years, playing another part
Trying to find a tune I used to know by heart
Hello, I came here to sing
When I was born, it was so clear to me
I took a weird turn, seeking proof of worth
Until the day I saw it was right there at birth
Hello, I came here to be the most fearless version of me
Spool the thread and make the voyage
Pack your lunch
You have date with a monster
You want to linger in the palace
But the goods are in Alice’s wonderland
Start the car and hit the pedal
Will it be comfort of art?
Tell the truth: what’s in your heart?
What goes up must float
And if you wanna glide, you better get a boat
Don’t like the spin?
Flip it around
Let me know when you’re ready to grow
I’ll be around
Hello, I came here to love
I get to love beyond the limits we’ve spoken of
The winds of change did blow in my favor
I thank the God who is Me that I didn’t waiver
Hello, I came here as Source
To project one more light through a kaleidoscope
Spool the thread and make the voyage
Pack your lunch
You have date with a monster
You want to linger in the palace
But the goods are in Alice’s wonderland
Start the car and hit the pedal
Will it be comfort of art?
Tell the truth: what’s in your heart?
What goes down is in for a ride
If you want a guide, how ‘bout looking inside?
What is low, can bounce back up
Let me know when you’re ready to turn the volume up
What goes up must float
And if you wanna glide, you better get a fucking boat
Don’t like the spin?
Flip it around
Let me know when you’re ready to grow
I’ll be around
Love,
Porter Singer